Three Lifetimes

Three Lifetimes

This is just me

Emotions I can’t control

And that sad song

Playin on the radio

Too empty to

Be strung out

And too sober

To fade out

 Built a mighty fortress

Around this broken heart

You’d probably understand

If you tried to start

Could build an empire

In the blink of an eye

Built on suffering and pain

But too much work to try

Pushin em all away

But they keep comin along

Already enough somber tales

Of the many who have gone

Buried myself away

Tried to save what remains

Not much left in the world

To keep this heart restrained

Been torn apart

One too many times

And I’ve taken enough

For three lifetimes

So maybe this is

My heart’s swan song

Tellin a tale of pain

That’s been livin too long

Time for a drink

Or three or four

To quiet me down

And prevent a war

At least I know

That deep in the bottle

There’s no broken promises

Or dreams to topple

Cliche

Cliche

Go ahead and toss me

Another tired cliché

I’ll just keep hopin

You’ll have time another day

I know you’re busy

Caught up in life

And I’ll keep breathin

Watchin my dyin light

A cry for help is more

Like a scream of terror

But no one’s listenin

Cuz nobody cares

Would be nice just for once

To have that shoulder to cry on

Got the world on my mind

And no one to rely on

Stress is mounting

Nerves are shot

Life’s exhausting

Becoming someone I’m not

When is enough, enough

No one knows

But if I know myself

I’m getting close

The breaking point

Is coming fast

And it’ll be a miracle

If I manage to last

Don’t want any pity

Or even any sympathy

But damn would it be nice

To find a bit of empathy

Lost In Your Shadow

Lost in Your Shadow

Tell me what it is

That makes this a home

And tell me why

I always feel so alone

Empty room

Full of memories

Built with love

Ended as enemies

Lookin back

 I probably knew

I was meant for someone

But it was never you

But I pressed on

Hopin for the best

And no matter what I did

I always failed the test

A closed door

An iron fist

Lost in your shadow

Questioning if I even exist

Keepin Up

Keepin Up

Keepin up and pushin on

Hang on for the ride and some fun

But in your heart

You know he isn’t the one

Won’t let him go

Always reachin for a hand to hold

Keep changing who you are

To hopefully finally fit in the mold

Each step you move ahead

And every decision you make

Just another on a long list

Of intentional mistakes

You take the ring

You wear the dress

You take his name

And your lifes already a mess

You have his baby

And add one more

Each day waiting

For him to show you the door

You sing while you fold

And smile while you sweep

Makin him lunch

And cryin in your sleep

You want an escape

But don’t want to leave

An unhealthy attachment

To a man you can’t keep

One day it’ll come

Crashing down

But you’ll feign happiness

At least for now

Mirror, Mirror

Mirror, Mirror

Mirror, mirror

On the wall

How many times

Will you watch me fall?

The face staring back

Is unfamiliar at best

The cold eyes burn

The subject of my unrest

I recognize the hands

Clutching my face

They used to be mine

But I’ve been replaced

I quietly watch my chest

Rise and fall with each breath

It’s the usual pattern

But still leaves me concerned

It is my outline that I see

But it’s the empty shell

The feeling that consumes

That’s what leaves me unwell

Sickened by what I see

Staring back in the mirror

I used to see myself

Now the image isn’t so clear

So mirror, mirror

Up on the wall

Just tell me please

When I’ll be recalled