Do You Remember

Do You Remember?

Do you remember?

Do you remember telling me

You weren’t going to coddle me

While I was pregnant because

you didn’t want me to get used to it?

Do you remember calling me two-face

After my bells palsy happened?

The time you texted me at work

To tell me you were going to

Throw William at the wall if he didn’t stop crying?

Do you remember when I was

On bed-rest with Gabby and you said I bet I enjoyed

Having the doctor’s permission to be lazy?

Do you remember the night

I was coughing too much for you

So after you unsuccessfully tried to pull me out of bed

Instead, you took my pillow and blanket and threw them down the stairs?

Do you remember the time

That you texted me at work

Telling me if I didn’t come home

You were going to put the baby in her crib

And leave her there until I got home because she was crying too much?

Do you remember the day of Gabby’s birthday party?

When you threw William’s nightlight at me

Embedded it in the drywall and it shattered 4 inches from my face?

And when I said it almost hit me,

You said it would have hit me if you wanted it to.

Do you remember any of the times

That you told me to discipline our kids the “right” way

Or you were going to do it your way

Which included using a belt on them.

Do you remember any of the times

You told me to clean the house your way

Or you were just going to go through the house

With a garbage bag and throw away anything

That was “out of place”?

Do you remember

When you hit me above the eye

Apologized for it

And then said it never happened?

Do you remember telling me

That you never wanted Gabby

And we just had her to appease me?

Do you remember any of those times?

Because I do.

And its too bad that you have so many people fooled

If only they knew what kind of

Emotionally and mentally abusive asshole

You really are. 

But eventually they will see your true colors

Because you are fucked up

And you won’t be able to hide it forever.

All these people that have stood by your side

Will either convince you that you are normal

Or will turn their backs on you.

And the patterns of abuse will continue

On and on

With every new woman that stupidly

Steps foot in your life. 

How sad for the babies

That they have to have an abusive asshole for a father

But I’ll do everything I can to protect them from you

Until they are old enough to walk out of your life on their own.