A Letter of Love and Sorrow

A Letter of Love and Sorrow

I’ve failed you

So many times before

But this time

It hurts a hundred times more.

I’ve let you down

So many times in the past

But this time

The pain will last.

I love you so deeply

That I fear my heart will actually break

Because I’ve failed you that badly

And I know what’s at stake.

I know sorry will never be enough

And it crushes my soul

To know I’ve made your life so tough.

I don’t know why

We couldn’t make it forever

But if I knew how to fix it

I would undertake that endeavor.

I brought you into this world

With dreams in my soul

And now all I can give you

Is a mother you can’t console.

I am so sorry

That I failed you this terribly

I promised myself

That you would never have to live your lives this unbearably.

I stand before you

Begging for forgiveness

For bringing you into a marriage

That was such a mess.

I can never change what

Has occurred

And I know that all this is

Is a paper filled with words.

But I hope in my heart

One day you will see

That no matter what ever happens

You two will always be the most important things to me.

I have shed a thousand tears

Because my guilt runs so deep

And I can never apologize enough to you

For letting your father be a man that I could not keep.